26.08.2007

On this day, I have to run 12 km for Army Half Marathon(AHM)  in the morning. Despite this, I have 1 day off on Mon. Well, I deserve it as most unit do not book in as early as 7 pm just for that damn 7 hours of sleep on Sat and wake up at 3 am. Worst of all, I have friends who posted out from Signal Institute 1 week ago  either do not even need to run for AHM or run 6 km for AHM. Well, I am always the ‘luckiest’ lot.

Another point I have noted is that I do not get to enjoy what I want in the LONG RUN. For instance, I was elated for the fact that I could gather my 3 close bunk mates for a movie in the morning after some much appeal. Yet, the joy diminishes when I reached home in the afternoon. My brother pissed me off and my hardisk is in the state of ‘coma’.  As a result, I need to fork out precious money to retrieve my precious data and I am uncertain if my data could be retrieved. Argh!!!

Would You Be There- Redwan Ali

This song is indeed marvellous as it expresses the thoughts I had in my brain for a long time.  That’s why I never fail to listen to it when I am in camp.  Hopefully, there is someone who could unravel the answers to me soon. Here’s the lyrics of the song.

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that’s ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there..

My first nightout @ Keat Hong Camp

In this post, I shall talk about my experience in my first 3 days of 1.5 yrs NS training.

In my first day, I dragged my foot to the camp as I SERIOUSLY miss my bunk mates at Signal Institute. That’s why I keep calling them to know how is their camp like as well as miss their presence. When I stepped into the camp, I was indeed stunned by the structure of the building of the Keat Hong Camp. It looks like a school and new! However, don’t be fool by it. The bunk could suffer electrical trick!!! But, I have TV in my bunk. I don’t need to go to Enlistee’s mess to watch TV not like some camps (oops….) !!!However, there is SOC in my camp. (BOOO….!!!!) Despite all these, the day is very long to me.

Reflection…

After watching series of Honour and Passion drama at MobTV, I really wish that there is such a girl who really likes me. In return, I will definitely treasure her as I need a companion to walk through my army life phase. If not, I am really feeling bored about my life! I may sound desperado. But, I am not. Of course, I must have feelings with that girl as well. With all of these requirements, the ability to relish these moments is in the UTOPIAN world!!! Sigh!!!

With nonsense aside, I have finally able to do what I normally do in CV life. NS is simply killing my time. I really appreciate the moments I had now – 2 off days + 2 book out days.  On the other light, NS has allowed me to make more friends and seen through different people at different perspective.  However, I still think that such experience could be attained in CV life during my working days in the future.

‘Status’ Day 1

Finally, I feel elated today. I manage to meet up CY and strive to complete her 3 missions. Along the way, I begin to see her transformation like she is really meticulous when it comes to select gift for a guy she likes. Well, the thesis of ‘people will change when he/she is on a relationship’ is indeed true from the number of people I have seen.  

Then, I met up with Stephen for a movie-881 since CY wants to go home. I must admit that the advertisement for 881 is substandard. Yet, the movie is indeed hilarious provided that you could understand Hokkien well. In my personal opinion, younger generation should watch this as the movie integrates the old Hokkien songs into jovial scenes which allures the young. In this way, I think the director wants to correct the younger generation’s mentality that the Hokkien songs, getai is obsolete, old fashioned. In fact, these tools contain experiences that we can learn from.  Oops, I seem to be advertising for the show. Well, I am not. I am just expressing my thoughts. You have a choice of wanting to watch it or not.

Mini BUNK outing

For once in my army life, I organise bunk outing. In the end, only 2 bunk mates- Tat Kian, Alifi turn up. SIGH!!! Well, I anticipated it as people have different commitments. As usual, I initiated them to go and watch movie. Then, we had lunch at Subway. Then, Tat Kian and I went for route march from Plaza Singapura via Bugis Junction to Borders at Wheellocks Place. The only difference is that we do not carry FBO and wear green. Well, it is a meaningful one as we chat all sorts of rubbish during that march. 

On my way back home, I saw Yong Han at Dhoby Ghaut MRT station. I suspect that that site is sacred to me  as I always meet long-lost friend there. He told me that his secondary school friends – Edwin Loh; Wei Kang are in the same platoon with me. What a coincidence! At a deeper thought, why do I encounter people that are friends or classmates of my friend. For instance, Tat Kian is Valencia’s secondary classmate. Ivan is Elaine’s friend. I think I should discover more interesting facts yet I do not know yet since I am living in such a small world. 

NDP ’07

09.08.2007

Although it is National Day, I am not even happy or excited about this day. I even pray that this day could disappear fast from my sight. 

Yesterday, my sergeant told me that I am going into the marching contingent.  However, such delightful moments are transient cos the person I took over last week came back. Well, the truth is out. I am disqualified from the marching contingent. 😦  Yet, I remain calm and quiet in my bunk cos my heart is deeply etched.

On the other hand, Stephen was also out from the contingent. Thus, I have at least a companion to talk to in the ‘reserve’ team. Yet, in my heart, I was gladly giving my best wishes to my bunk mates. Sadly to say, Tat Kian suspected me that my wishes was just a way to express my jealousy. To be candour, I am not. Although I am pissed off about the fact that I am not inside the contingent, I was happy that my friends are marching. In short, the day is agonizing. The reason is simple! I cannot witness the parade even though I am not marching. WTH!!! Well, it is over. I want to go online to see how my bunk mates march on that big day. Haha!!!

1 hrs later to book in…. BOOOO….

In less than 1 hr,  I have to book in to camp. Haiz, damn sian. But, thinking of meeting bunk mates n talking rubbish wif them motivates me a bit. As a 4 mths soldier, I tink I have changed a little. For instance, my weapon of speech – sacrasm has diminished over time. This has been gladly substituted by vulgarities. At a good sight, I begin to talk senseless issues which I used to shun most of it in the past.

Hmm, this book in is going to be short one due to the imminent NATIONAL DAY. For once, I know the significance of this day – a day to slack. For this year’s National Day, I hope to stand on the floating platform on this Thursday – a day that I have been waiting for. If not, all the scoldings by my superiors have gone to waste.

001: Meaning of Relief /Reserve

04.08.2007 

I was located near Marina Square. Yet, I was not there to do window shopping. Instead, I was there for the NDP rehearsal. The thought of being there was delighted as I will be booking out after the march at the floating platform of the NDP.  Sadly to say, a flash of thought strikes on me. Throughout my life, I have been a reserve or relief for someone. For instance, I have been a relief teacher for 3 months before enlistment into army this year. In less than half a month, I am a reserve marching personnel for the NDP 07. Why should I be the one taking over other people’s duty? Does it mean I am not able to do as well as other people?  Do you know how irritating is to let other people mark you as a reserve?

In the case of relief teaching, students that are taught by me responded to me that I teach much better than those NIE trained teachers. You may think that I am jus pure arrogant but this comment is made by students. Yet, my efforts  were undermined. Although I was bullied by her, I just keep my mouth sealed.  In addition, my alma mater only treats me like a spare tyre. They will only hire me when they could not find a relief teacher for the day. They simply look down on me due to the fact that I am from neighbourhood schools ever since I step into school at the age of 6. Yet, I choose keep mum over this fact and pretend to be nonchalant. You may think that I have a big belly to contain my sorrows. Well, I think that you are partially right as there is nothing I could do since this has been a blatant fact which will never change. 

In contrast, I am just hoping that all these words – ‘reserve’ & ‘relief’ do not exist in my dictionary. In fact, I detest these words from now on.  I have tasted these experiences more than enough. 😦 I may blow up any time as my big belly is suffering from overcrowding.  To all those people who do not understand me yet, I may look lost or nonchalant when I am encountered with problems like people chiding me, talking behind my back. In reality, I am just trying to calm myself down since there is no point of dwelling over it.  In fact, I will find opportunity to let those unscrupulous scandals to have the taste of what I feel.  Well, that is me. L