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A lesson on life

Today is indeed a meaningful day. Lots of pleasant stuff comes simultaneously. How I wish it could occur everyday. :p

It all started up with clearing my cupboard in the late morning after a sudden thoughts of how to store new semester materials at my house last night. Then, I saw thick bulk of JC PHYSICS materials which I have decided to abandon them in order to give way to the University stuff. Well, this is an illustration of trade off. :p Despite this, I have decided not to discard them since they are indeed good materials. Thus, I decided to pass it to Mr Lim since he is still teaching PHYSICS.

After carrying these thick bulk of Physics materials to his house, we have decided to go for a chat for hours (without me noticing). But, there is a main take away message that I have received from him. That is, he has shown me what is happiness. Although I have always been telling people that happiness do not need to be achieved using wealth, I have never given a serious thoughts on how I could make it happen for myself. With Mr Lim illustrations of his ex students, I am indeed convinced that I need to do something. I MUST stop giving myself reason from pursuing true happiness. When Mr Lim presents me the illustrations, I was indeed envious by his ex students. They may not be rich or have career. Nevertheless, they are indeed happy. Even though I am a sociology advocate who will attempt to unravel dark truths with various evidences presented, I did my best to challenge it and yet the truth remains  that Mr Lim’s ex students are indeed more happy than I am. Although I detest doing comparsion among people, I still choose to compare myself with them as a motivation for myself to work harder (rather than a negative comparison). In fact, there are too many things that were running into my mind at that moment.  

1. I always reveal that I love children (indeed I really do). But, have I given a serious thoughts on having at least 1 in future?

2. I always told myself that I wanted to get married before the age of 30 (ideally the age of 28). But, have I given a serious thoughts on how to make it possible?

3.  I have always said that the definition of true happiness (in my notion) is NOT GDP (I’m sorry if I disappoint those Econs freaks) but the ability to have a FULFILLING CAREER and FAMILY (with wife and kids). But, have I given a serious thoughts on it?

The answer is NO. I always try to dodge it from such questions. This is the ‘field’ that I have failed despite me setting the requirements to be low. The best way I always try to defend is using my looks to justify my ‘incompetence’ as I have in some ways already given up. So, what should I do now? I need to wake up my idea and try harder. As what MC has told me last night, what do we know that ‘it is fate that brought us together’? In order to know the answer, we need to put into actions and if it works well, then we could say that. In another words, there is no such things as fate. Even if it exists, it ONLY brought us to came to know each other since there are so many people in this world. The rest of it lies on your hands.

So, what am I waiting for? Well, I have tried to make my 1st move for the whole week (and even harder just now). Yet, there is limited success.  Am I disappointed? Well, it is inevitable but I shall perservere and not to give up. 🙂

NO more excuses, please. I am already hitting 23 soon. Once the ‘golden period’ is up, it is never possible to regain this edge.