Time really flies. I am 22 years old now. I am in my 2nd year of my university path. To be frank, I can’t even believe it myself. In this entry, I would like to do a reflection about myself for the past 1 year.
To begin with, this semester is more stressful than my past few semesters. Rest is never in my dictionary. What makes it worst? My memory power is not in sync with my workload. I simply just forget things whenever I tried to squeeze in more contents required from my modules. I even have learning problems. I just can’t absorb facts or concepts at times in lectures and tutorials. My mind is suffering from crowding out effect not just applicable to consumption and investments when there is an increase in government spending in a closed economy. My mind is retarding and I am becoming a retard. I am not joking. I feel it myself. On top of that, I have even done foolish acts. I spend 2 full days in preparing a 7 pages report for one of my modules but end off half done. What is going on in me? Haiz… At that moment, I just realise that a project report needs to have a proper planning before research. Omg, I can’t imagine that I have made just a costly mistake despite time is a scarce resource. In view of all these factors, I get exceptionally stressed out. It is such moment that makes me lost my momentum in studies and began to SLACK… In fact, I am looking forward to my birthday not because I could a reason to take a break for a day but it is the ability to welcome my Mid term break starting from next week.
Other than academic, I felt blessed for being able to pursue part time teaching for the past 1 year. E.g. Relief teaching, tuition. It was all of these exposures that strengthen my will to live on. Well, I definitely miss my ex CVSS students. They are fabulous lots of students. In fact, I did not expect them to flood my facebook status for all their genuine heartfelt wishes. On top of that, I must thank those people who have given opportunities to teach them and even YYSS students. This is so as not everyone are given such opportunities. It was all of these experiences that reaffirm my stance in teaching.
Last but not least, I am glad that my family is still stable and united so far. This is important as family is my building block in life. Once they collapse, I will collapse at higher probability. Nevertheless, my definition of family includes the traditional definition as well as close friends and TTC. Although I have made several mistakes occasionally for the past 1 year, all of you still give me chance to repent. From here, let me thank those friends who even went the extra mile for the birthday lunch possible as well as the treat from them. In addition, there is one person that I should not forget. I will not disclose him or her here. In fact, I would drop a personal email to thank him or her to express my gratitude.
In short, I had a great birthday this year especially for the fact that I enjoyed it with my fellow birthday buddies. All of these are not possible if I have not met great family. Hehe…
TYS 